Ocean, don’t be afraid… Don’t worry. Your father is only your father until one of you forgets. Like how the spine won’t remember its wings no matter how many times our knees kiss the pavement. Ocean, are you listening? The most beautiful part of your body is wherever your mother’s shadow falls. Here’s the house … Continue reading About suffering they were never wrong
This last week has been the hardest. Never have I experienced more physical pain or emotional strain. I've been in the hospital for nine days now. I have a huge incision that runs across my mid-section. Right now it has infection. They've already removed the tumor in my pancreas and, surprise, surprise, the cyst in … Continue reading Tubes and Hospital Bed
Diagnosis is now official: pancreatic tumor and ovarian cyst. Doctors wouldn't know if the tumor is malignant or benign until they get a sample. I flew back to Manila last October sixth. Medical practice in Dubai is not as advance as it is here. I don’t want to be their guinea pig. Plus my parents are … Continue reading I need surgery, they will cut open my belly
Doctors are masters of half-truths. They don’t tell you the whole thing. Their sentences are always careful and calculated. The silence is awkward and deafening when they’re reading your radiology report. I try to judge their honesty and trustworthiness based on their word usage, tone of speech, and the way they treat their nurses. I am most worried for the things they don’t say.
The other radiologist came in and they started talking in Urdu. I heard pancreas and CT. Is there something wrong, I asked. Don’t worry darling, we’re checking. She called me darling. That’s when I knew something’s wrong.
A few weeks back some friends were making fun of my tennis posts on Facebook. It was the day Rafael Nadal won his 2nd US Open trophy and 13th grand slam title. No, I don't play tennis (nor any other sport), but I love the game, and I love Rafa more. My brain knew it … Continue reading The drama of an INFP Healer
"A sad fact which nevertheless needs to be faced is that a deeply committed Christian who wants to write stories or paint pictures or compose music to the glory of God simply may not have been given the talent, the gift, which a non-Christian, or even an atheist have in abundance. God is no … Continue reading Widow’s mite and the world’s market place
Dear Sir, I'm having a Princess syndrome. It's been following me for days. It started when my cousin in Dubai posted this: Just watched scene of Sleeping Beauty (yes, I know, Disney girl), and this line came at the end: "So arm yourself with this enchanted Shield of Virtue, and this mighty Sword of Truth, … Continue reading my Disney princess syndrome
Dear Sir, I'm currently following 3 T.V. series every week: Downton Abbey, Grey's Anatomy, and The Walking Dead. 5 if you would include Suits which I'm currently watching, and Once Upon A Time which I'm planning to watch after Suits. I'm also planning to finish Ally McBeal, it's just 5 seasons (I think), and if … Continue reading on maturity and self gratification